INTERMISSION: The Ailing Person’s Dream
UNEDITED.
“... …Ah… …Mari…!! It’s me, Gil… …rt, can… t…breathe…!?” Who…? My vision is all blurry so I can’t really tell. It’s hard to breathe. It’s as if my body’s being frozen…it’s cold. No matter how much I try to breathe in the air I can feel that it’s not reaching my very core. It hurts so much that even if I try to turn over I can’t feel any strength from my hands and feet. Someone…please help me. Even though I have already prepared myself for this and yet I’m still this scared. I am terrified of dying. I am scared of leaving that person by himself. My vision is still hazy but I can finally somehow see some light blue and I know…this color is his. Thanks to that I can somehow smile through the pain. Ah…I’m glad I can see you for one last time. My most beloved person. I’m sure he’s crying again. Because of me, this kind and gentle person has been crying countless times. …I’m sorry I couldn’t have a life with you. I wanted to live more with you. I still wanted to tell you a lot of I love you's You have no idea how much I’ve been saved by your presence. You gave meaning to my life that had nothing. You saved me. You gave me happiness. You made me think “I’m glad to be alive” That’s why please, please live for my sake as well. For so many years, you’ve only been living for my sake. That’s why I hope for you to be happy for my share as well. That’s why, someone please… Stay by his side. Even as a friend, a lover…I don’t mind if you’ll end up loving her more than me. He’s extremely clumsy but he’s a very pure person He’s the kind of person that once he decided on something he will go through it, even if it’s a path filled with darkness. Because he’s a person who spent all his years and an unbelievable amount of time just for me. He’s the kind of person who endured everything by himself. That’s why, I have to tell this extremely pure person who only knows how to whittle himself away. The words that I’ve always wanted to say. I have to say it before I lost my voice. Thank you for loving me…and letting me love you. Thank you for giving me happiness and for letting me live my life as a person. I have to tell him these words that contain my everything. If there’s a god out there please tell it to him in my steed. Because as long as I can convey those words then he can live his life without being bound by me. Please, somehow… My vision is starting to dim I can no longer see even those light blue eyes that I’ve been trying to hold onto so much. Ah…. I wanted to tell…him…one last time… … … “... …Ah… …Mari…!! It’s me, Gil…be …rt, can….you…. t…breathe…!?” When I woke up I realized I was already on the bed. I know I’m in reality seeing as how it’s getting harder and harder to breathe and then this never-ending coldness. … … …I wonder what was that dream I was having. I can no longer remember it but only this unexplainable piercing pain in my heart remains. It felt like I was shown in my dream all sorts of pain and regrets. But the pain from breathing is making it hard for me to think. I couldn’t even tell what was in front of me since my vision is getting blury. Ah…I see. So this is the last time, isn’t it? That, I can definitely tell. Even the sound and my vision have started to become hazy I can feel my consciousness slipping again and then I can somehow see some light-blue color in front of me…and immediately understood that it’s him. Even though everything feels so painful, I can feel myself smiling upon knowing that he’s here. I wonder what is this feeling…it felt like this already happened before. But…I’m glad I am able to see him for one last time. “Maria….!!!” My very precious person. EUNIE: I CRIED. I WAS KINDA TEARY WHILE I WAS TRANSLATING THIS CHAPTER. AND I DIDN'T REALLY EXPECT WE'D GET TO SEE AN INTERMISSION CHAPTER IN MARRIANE'S POV. I HOPE WE GET TO SEE THIS ANIMATED.
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